August 2, 2019

I honestly cannot believe that today is August 2, 2019.  Time is truly flying faster than I can account for.  I get up each day during the week, go downstairs to my couch, sit down, pull out my lap desk, pickup my work laptop, and mouse and put both on the lap desk.  Each day this happens no later than 720 am usually, if not earlier. I then connect to my VPN, setup my remote sessions into my service desk software applications, pull up my Accounts email account, and begin working.  I manage 2 different software packages for work orders that may be called in each day.  It's my job to sort the work orders, and then delegate them to their proper teams that must be tasked with working on the problems.  I monitor and manage these until 5 pm each day, getting up to use the restroom, get my lunch, which i usually will eat while logged in working.

This would be fine and all, except since I've been back on the maintenance chemo, (which started this past Monday) I've had an increase in my appetite, and a definite increase in my fatigue. I'm so sleepy now its not funny.  I slept a long time last night, from like 10 pm until 7 am, but i still find myself very tired.  to the point of dozing off even at times.  I'm hoping that as my body gets more acclimated to being on the chemo, i'll start to balance out and not be as fatigued and my appetite will return to normal.  I enjoy being a lot thinner now than I used to be, so I do not want to gain a bunch of weight.

I've just received a call stating that some of the lower receivers that I had ordered from PSA have came in, and that i can pick them up at my leisure.  These are specialty "meme" lowers, with special roll mark engravings.  I would probably not build them into full AR's, rather just keep them as a collection piece due to the low number produced of each.  PSA has been producing a lot of these Meme lowers, too many for me to have even one of each really.  there is some i just *Have* to have. and that is a  small number compared to how many different designs they have produced and plan to produce.  One of these lower designs is the F' Cancer lower.  It was designed to express hatred for Cancer in general, and as a popular saying of F*ck Cancer. cause that's what we have got to say and do to it.  The lowers look like this :

While these lowers were being developed on AR15.com (more commonly known as Arfcom) Someone had suggested some proceeds of the lowers sale go to fighting cancer.  Then someone suggested that the proceeds go to someone close to the PSA family, as in a overly rabid fan of their products, Me.  I was shocked and incredibly honored.  I didn't know what to say to it other than thank you.  So they have said that a small amount of each lower will be donated to me to help pay for my bills. This was incredible news, and just made me feel over the moon for the company, and its folks who run it.  I can't speak enough about how honorable and kind PSA as a company has been to me.  It truly has humbled me to be on the receiving end of so much kindness from them, not to mention other folks on Arfcom. 

Lately I've been watching via netflix the Vampire Diaries series.  I had tried to watch this show series when it first aired, but I had so much other stuff being recorded, i couldn't DVR it as well as my other shows due to time slot conflicts.  Anyways, I like paranormal, sci-fi, fantasy, etc, so this seemed to be right up  my alley after a friend of mine reminded me of the series a few weeks ago.  Since then I've watched almost 7 out of 8 complete seasons.  I've learned that in addition to this series, there are two spin off series, one called "the Originals" and another called "Legacies"  the first i imagine to be a prequel of sorts, and the latter a sequel of sorts.   Things I like about the series are the lore of the vampire history, the lore of the witches, the lore of the ware wolfs, and how it all became reality in the series.  It to me is a better take on vampires than the twilight series of sparkling vamps.  Things I do not like is the standard teenage angst/b.s. drama that they had to write in for love stories and all that.  it appears that was the target audience, being early to late high school kids and thus probably why there is that much written into its scripts.  The cast is pretty good, and the acting is not horrible, the special effects are not bad either so it saves the series from being "b-movie" campyness. Anyways, it fills the TV time for me for now.   

I finally was able to watch Avengers:EndGame, thanks to my brother Bobbie.  he hooked me up with his copy of it, and man is it good.  Quite a tear jerker actually.  After so many years, and so many movies, i'd become quite attached to the characters and man it rally hits ya hard when you loose some of the major ones after 2 decades of movies, and almost as long from back when i used to collect comic books.  I cant wait to see what they are going to do with the next phase of the MCU. Now that Disney owns all of Marvel, including the X-Men and the Fantastic Four.  It should be interesting either way now that it is all joined together as well.

Well I think I've rambled on enough for now, I'll try to write again soon. it's never easy to put my thoughts into words like this.  Heck its taken me 7 hours to do this much off and on today. ..

Thanks again for your prayers and support.

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