Today is Friday. It's been a busy work week, and i have had to visit the doctor yesterday as well. I'm still having hot flashes, and those don't make me feel very well. I've been having a hard time sleeping lately, at least, getting good sleep. I wake 2, 3, 4 times a night minimally. I am not sure what is keeping me from getting a good night sleep, usually, however last night i knew what it was. My stomach was upset severely, and it caused me a lot of pain until about 2 am when it finally worked its way out.
In regards to yesterday's doctors appointment, it was a standard visit of lab, and then consult, just for check up. this is the first since i'd been back on my Chemo regimen. The visit went well, however my labs had not been back by the time i saw my nurse practitioner so we didn't go over much. I did get a phone call a bit later after i left, and they stated that they wanted to schedule me for an abdominal ultrasound. The reasoning was that my liver enzymes were elevated. I don't know what could have caused the liver enzymes to be elevated, other than i'm on new medication (the chemo) especially when comparing my last labs to the last visit i had been almost a month prior. So for now pray that it is the new medication, and not anything else bad is going on. I know i'm a bit worried about it since they want the ultrasound.
After the doctor appointment i left and went by the county courthouse to pay taxes on the purple Camaro, and then to the DMV to turn in license plates, and get a new one for my purple Camaro. I've done this because my good friend Alex, has been working on the car to get it running right for me. It's been damn near 10 years since it was on the road running and driving, and it's been that long since it's been tagged. Now that it's been tagged it will be road legal which is good, as its over due, and once Alex has her fixed up and running reliably i'll be able to drive her on a routine manner. I'm really excited about this, because it has been so long. The last video alex sent me was this one where he'd gotten the driver door poppers to work again thankfully.
As you can see the popper is working again without issue thankfully. This makes it easier now to secure the vehicle. Instead of having it to have to be in the garage, it can park outside if i need to, to be able to open it up without having to crawl through the trunk, which in my current health condition i can no longer do truthfully. He's made a lot of head way with the car from what I've seen and he's even looked into things like the dash lighting which is incredibly dim to be lit up by LED's if need be. I don't know if hes going to swap them out for me or not but i mentioned that and he said he was already looking at it so for that i too am thankful. Alex has really been a big help with the car. I'm going to be forever thankful for his assistance with it. I truly feel that without his help i'd never get it done. And lets be honest here, call it morbid, or call it whatever you chose to but i don't know how much time I will have here on this planet. You may say none of us do, but i feel that i know i have even less as each day is a gift with my disease, and as such to be able to have my friend fix my car so that i can drive it again, with my wife, like we used to when we first started dating, is a big blessing. One that i cant put into enough words to explain to him how much it means that he's doing this for me.
So the above image, "I admire people who choose to shine even after all the storms they've been through." was shared to my facebook wall this morning by my wife. She also wrote this " Steve Hafner, you are an inspiration...I hope you know how much I love you" To me this meant the world. I don't know how she knew that I needed to hear something like this today but she did, and she posted it. There are a lot of times that I feel a bit down, and while i have a great support system from her, and our family, and friends, I can be a good bit dark. Her posting this though really helped me today, so that i wasn't that dark in feeling. between how i feel physically and how i can go dark or sad at any time just sucks. Lately i've not felt 100% and i attribute that to the new chemo regimen. when i dont feel physically well, i tend to get down and get darker thoughts than normal, which i suppose is not odd given my medical condition and current diagnoses. I hope that things get better and that i continue to heal, but i dont know what the future will hold, and while that is scary normally, its even more so now to me. I'm rambling.. so im gonna go for now.
In regards to yesterday's doctors appointment, it was a standard visit of lab, and then consult, just for check up. this is the first since i'd been back on my Chemo regimen. The visit went well, however my labs had not been back by the time i saw my nurse practitioner so we didn't go over much. I did get a phone call a bit later after i left, and they stated that they wanted to schedule me for an abdominal ultrasound. The reasoning was that my liver enzymes were elevated. I don't know what could have caused the liver enzymes to be elevated, other than i'm on new medication (the chemo) especially when comparing my last labs to the last visit i had been almost a month prior. So for now pray that it is the new medication, and not anything else bad is going on. I know i'm a bit worried about it since they want the ultrasound.
After the doctor appointment i left and went by the county courthouse to pay taxes on the purple Camaro, and then to the DMV to turn in license plates, and get a new one for my purple Camaro. I've done this because my good friend Alex, has been working on the car to get it running right for me. It's been damn near 10 years since it was on the road running and driving, and it's been that long since it's been tagged. Now that it's been tagged it will be road legal which is good, as its over due, and once Alex has her fixed up and running reliably i'll be able to drive her on a routine manner. I'm really excited about this, because it has been so long. The last video alex sent me was this one where he'd gotten the driver door poppers to work again thankfully.
As you can see the popper is working again without issue thankfully. This makes it easier now to secure the vehicle. Instead of having it to have to be in the garage, it can park outside if i need to, to be able to open it up without having to crawl through the trunk, which in my current health condition i can no longer do truthfully. He's made a lot of head way with the car from what I've seen and he's even looked into things like the dash lighting which is incredibly dim to be lit up by LED's if need be. I don't know if hes going to swap them out for me or not but i mentioned that and he said he was already looking at it so for that i too am thankful. Alex has really been a big help with the car. I'm going to be forever thankful for his assistance with it. I truly feel that without his help i'd never get it done. And lets be honest here, call it morbid, or call it whatever you chose to but i don't know how much time I will have here on this planet. You may say none of us do, but i feel that i know i have even less as each day is a gift with my disease, and as such to be able to have my friend fix my car so that i can drive it again, with my wife, like we used to when we first started dating, is a big blessing. One that i cant put into enough words to explain to him how much it means that he's doing this for me.
So the above image, "I admire people who choose to shine even after all the storms they've been through." was shared to my facebook wall this morning by my wife. She also wrote this " Steve Hafner, you are an inspiration...I hope you know how much I love you" To me this meant the world. I don't know how she knew that I needed to hear something like this today but she did, and she posted it. There are a lot of times that I feel a bit down, and while i have a great support system from her, and our family, and friends, I can be a good bit dark. Her posting this though really helped me today, so that i wasn't that dark in feeling. between how i feel physically and how i can go dark or sad at any time just sucks. Lately i've not felt 100% and i attribute that to the new chemo regimen. when i dont feel physically well, i tend to get down and get darker thoughts than normal, which i suppose is not odd given my medical condition and current diagnoses. I hope that things get better and that i continue to heal, but i dont know what the future will hold, and while that is scary normally, its even more so now to me. I'm rambling.. so im gonna go for now.
You have a lot of people that care and love you. We may not say it all the time but we should. So Steve, love you son!!!
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